dun noe y horr,,,everytime i drink mocha will go sot sot derhhx,,today i drink liaoo straight away go sot,,got bigggg effect on mee,,lol,,shout scream etc etc,-.-,,done permeanant dmg on me liaoox hahax,,jkjk,,actually is whether i wan to do it or not larrhx,,coz i have a choice in life mahhx,,i wan it to be a horrible one den it will be a horrible one,,den if i wan it to be a nice n lovely one it can happen,,coz its all abt the choice i make in life,,its just too bad i realize this onli now,,last time i tot tt i was born n brought to the world n just get wad i get n lose wad i lost without even doin anything,,meaning it just comes to me n i get it without makin any changes to it,,after experiencing many changes n regrets in life i finally realized tt i DO have wad it takes to make my life a better one,,i cant be blaming ppl for my actions n choices i did which made me regret,,many parts of my life were influenced by my frens,,i wld always try to fit in wif them,,if i cant i wld just back off,,coz i noe tt those things they do r just not...wad i wld do if i was myself,,if they make fun of me n another guy i wld just smile or maybe ignore them,,i just duno how to react when this kind of things happen,,if i realli do like tt guy i wld smile or ignore,,if i dun i wld oso do the same,,so there is completely no telling whether i like tt guy or not,,im a gal hu cant control my reaction,,especially laughter,,after many yrs,my frens,family,relatives all realli made me a happi gal,,they made me hu i am today,,without them i wld be a spoiled brat without having any feelings towards anyone n treat them as if they r..nths?i can tell u tt i am still not realli perfect in my attitude yet,,but im learning though,,n i realli hope tt maybe,,just maybe,,i can make my dying dreams come true,,